The blessing and curse of solitude is that you can make your own decisions about how you spend your time, so long as you don't require the presence of anyone else. Eat when you want, sleep when you want, read, write, dance, play, cry, pray, all at your own leisure, until your body relents. It's a bit of a trap because once you get a taste of peaceful solace, the pitfalls of coexistence become magnified. That's not to say that the perks of coexistence don't stand out when you find yourself alone when you would rather have company or support, it does happen from time to time. You can do bad by yourself, but why do bad when you can do better? That's the challenge.
Left to your own devices, maybe it's easier to see when you're being your own worst enemy, or maybe it's easier to delude yourself into thinking you're serving your own best interest? This is why a Healthy Perspective is a Godsend. We're lost without it, and seldom do we find it all by our lonesome. Thank the Lord for the written word. Ideas, transcribed, and clearly communicated, can open our eyes to certain truths we'd otherwise deny. But, who says you have to do anything if there's only you to answer to? It's a mixed blessing at best, a combination of liberation and condemnation, sort of like the song quoted (and linked) in the title above: equal parts content and defeated. Some ask, "What's the point in living if all you are doing is expediting your death?" That's a good question. Irreconcilable schisms invoke Nihilism, which usually precedes self-negation. It's the people who love you, and love having you in their life that can make the difference, otherwise...
"You can do what you want to,
whenever you want to,
though it doesn't mean a thing,
Big nothing."
~ Elliott Smith
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